Saturday, June 21, 2008

Best Friend

Have you ever lost your best friend? Or at least felt like you lost them for a certain amount of time? Have you ever had that feeling of having a whole in your heart that can't be filled because it's just that unique but you have to have it filled or else you'll die? Well I have that feeling, before school even ended my best friend was taken from me, before I could even complain once to her about how horrible life is during the summer or get a first inside joke, she was taken from me without any warning that this is what it would feel like. Okay so it may not be that she was torn away from me, she went of her own free will, and weather she knows that she is indeed my one true best friend or not she is and life is horribly dull without her! Who is my best friend you ask? well first off, she's known me for all 13 years of her life, and I've known her just as well, she knows everything about me and I know everything about her. She is my sister, and she's been taken from me by her love of camp for one month and now without her I'm lost. I'm lost because without her, I'm not the same person. There is a part of me that is gone and it's a large part of me too, we did a lot together. I miss being able to talk to her at night, even if she did bug me sometimes, or hear who she liked or didn't like of the guys that I liked. She is everything that I am not, and without her I don't know where my head is, things aren't as funny without her. Punishments aren't half as enjoyable without her, the house is to quiet and to much about the little boys running around without her. I feel upset when I don't get a letter from her. I miss being able see her in the morning and comfort her during whatever it was that she had that was hurting her. I even miss her calling me stupid or weird. She is the one person who if I lose, I would die of a broken heart because without her life simply isn't as great of an adventure or as good of a story to live. I want her back now, I want her here in my arms because I need her. I feel like I'm whithering away without her, and I don't know if I can last 2 more weeks without her. I'm trying but I need her now.......