Dying

I'm dieing, slowly but surly the life in me is being sucked out of me until soon there will be nothing left of me. Day by day, i can feel my soul being sucked from me, my friends and my family seem to be more important than ever, yet it seems to take me more and more strength everyday to put on my face and make it look as everything is ok. How do you explain that you feel as if day by day your soul is being pulled apart, and that within a weeks time you will be nothing but a zombie, a body who's brain and body function but has virtually no feelings. Each day I have to remind myself to do little things like laugh, smile, run, jump, make myself appear to be alive, I don't want to face the truth anymore than anyone else does. I'm scared, I don't know where to turn, but i need the love of my friends, and i need it now.... I'm dieing, and all i need is your love.........